Golden

I’m really tired right now. I’ve been really tired for the past week and it’s no fun. I’ve boiled it down to the fact that school is to blame.  School is always to blame. It’s the end(ish) of the semester… two weeks left… and everything truly is piling up on top of me. Papers, papers, papers, presentations, papers, exams. Enough, please? I think I’ve been on a role this semester but I think now I am starting to reach my tipping point. I’m just so overwhelmed and stressed with the thought of classes. I’ll be glad when it’s over. I’ve definitely earned a break this time around. Last semester was definitely my heaviest with the brain torture, but this one is a close second, just for the amount of work I have to do. The perks of being a senior, I suppose? Oh well. After this semester I’ll be done with research papers for a while and next semester I can focus on my last handful of classes sans all night research. That’s definitely something to look forward to.

Other than school weighing on me a little, I must say things are going rather well compared to other days I’ve seen in the recent past. Lindsey and I are doing great and I’m confident this time will be different. I definitely am not settling this time around. She’s the whole package and then some. I’m so blessed. I love that I keep finding out more and more about her as we grow closer. Other than that, the semester is pretty much over like I said. I just need to get through this last pile of crap sitting in front of me.

I feel like I’ve changed a bit lately, if I’m being honest. I’m pretty happy with who I’ve become, but I’ve gone through another change… I’ve learned to let go of a lot of things that were holding me back, a lot of things I can’t control. I’m also learning that being me is good enough. I am who I am and I’m happy with that, even if the rest of the world isn’t. Anyways, to save from sounding like some ranting, rebellious teenager I will leave it at that. But I am seeing things differently now, and it feels good.

With that said, it’s off to bed for me. I’ve been a zombie today. Big day tomorrow. Bleh.